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Friday, July 25, 2014

Passing Folly

This
All of this
Is a passing folly
I've no need
To worry
About it

I've been thinking it over
The life I lead

I'll just keep on rowing
Rowing to my dreams
And if life is going
Somewhere I'm not sure
I want to be

I've been thinking it over
All the things I do

This
All of this
Is a passing folly
I'll keep it all
 at bay

I've been thinking it over
And I don't want to do it
Anymore

My dreams are bound to come
Down the stream
And up the sky
I'll get there
Because I will always try

I've been thinking it over
And I know
It is all
A passing folly

Wednesday, July 23, 2014

The other women ::

I want you to love me forever
But forever does not exist
I want you to wrap your arms around me
But the distance between us, gets in the way



And I'm left with nothing
But cocktail parties and black chiffon
Luxury leather for my new import car
And someone else's pity for being your wife
Your Hotel reservations made with some body else

And I don't like this arrangement
It's a tired game
And I take out my anger
Out on the town
It's a light affair that won't last the night
Sweet revenge
Isn't so sweet, and I've only got my old friend Jack

I want you to love me like you did from the start
But memories are vain
I wish that you'd use me as something more
Than a trophy on a shelf
But that's all you ever wanted from me

And I'm left with nothing
But condo's on a high rise
And a maid to clean up the mess
Transatlantic vacations
And a name on a card
And someone else's pity at being your wife
Your hotel reservations made with somebody else

And what do I know
I'm just the girl who married you
And I take out my anger
Out in the town
It's a light affair, it won't last the night
But you wouldn't notice either way
If I'm rolling the hundred to consume the white

And at the end of it all
I'm left with nothing
More than a dream
Of what I thought this could be
And someone else's pity for being your wife

All that money
And nothing to show for it

Saturday, July 19, 2014

Hazel Eyes

You were the first one
The first to take my heart
Against my consent
Took it out of my chest
And it felt strange to see it in your hands
But I would have given you anything, anyway
You and your hazel eyes
And your Earth-colored tone
You and your breaking smile

You can keep my heart
Safe in a box
In a hidden place
I don't want it back
I would have given it to you, anyway
You and your swaying curls
And your slender curves
You and your curt words

But you don't deserve to be a secret
You see, where I'm from you're forbidden
And I can't offer you a life
And you don't have a promise
Of a better world
But I will always love you
You and your red nails
And your soft lips
And your dark ways

Tuesday, July 15, 2014

The Darkness






There is something about darkness
That never seems to fade
Once you've reached the depth of darkness
Once you've known anger and hatred
Once you've been at the edge of death by your own hand
It will never disappear fully
Some say it makes the light all that stronger
That it makes redemption all the greater
We act proud and say we don't regret a thing
We trifle with fate and say that if we had the choice
We'd do it all again
We'd make every mistake, every heartbreak, every feeling of evil
But, the truth is we wouldn't 
We'd take pure, unadultered happiness
The happiness children feel before they know malice
Yet, we can't
The darkness is a powerful mistress 
Letting go
But never fully
There will alway be a trace of it, in the most repented soul
There will alway be a raging battle
Always a day that's filled with shadows
We say it makes for good comparisons
But the truth is we wish we'd never know it
We wished our paths had always traveled in light
There is something unforgiving about the darkness
It grips our souls forever, 
and we will never be just like the others




Sunday, July 13, 2014

I'll do it for you

Dress me in sadness that is all I have of you
And a box of belongings by the stairs
I'm leaving home, leaving this memory of you
Because you set my heart on fire
You showed me how to love again
You broke my walls
Let the light shine in
You chased away all the darkness from my past
And when people said you loved the wrong person
That I wasn't worthy of the green in your eyes
You'd hold me tight and say I was your home
I was your salvation
And in the deep of the night you'd confess you were afraid to grow addicted  to my smile, my body, my soul
Then you'd shake your head and laugh
Saying it all felt right in your heart
And in turn I'd whisper so softly no one else would be able to hear
That I loved you, I loved you more than I'd ever love anyone
That I'd give up my life to keep you safe
But death grew jealous and pried you from my arms
It grew lonely and called her angel back
And now darkness preys at the edge of my lands
There is a hurt in my heart that I'd never thought I'd feel
But I'll never go back to who I used to be before you
I'll do it for you, Because you loved me
I'll do it for you, Because you believed in me
I'll do it for you, Because you'd want me to be happy
I'll do it for you, Go out and lead the life we planned
I'll wipe the tears from eyes
And I'll be strong for you

Friday, July 11, 2014

Awake

What if I had met you before?

What if I had fallen in love with you first?

What if I've had the courage to follow you

To the end of the world

What of all the wasted time,

Life owes me so much of my life, with you

How do I ever get over that?

                                                What if's are frugal, my love

                                                 Destiny has a set plan
     
                                                It's all timed indeed

                                                What matters is that from now on

                                               Until the end of time

                                                In this world and any realm

                                                We are meant to be

What if our dreams are reality?

What if this reality is only a dream?

How do I know, which me is real?

How do I cope with the truth?

I'm never complete

I never know which side is right

And in the in-betweens

I never know which side of black I choose

                                                        Worry not, my dear

                                                         For in your dreams, I shall be there too

                                                        I know that you are mine

                                                         And I am yours

                                                        For every vow and every promise

                                                        I know I'll always be awake with you
                                           


Monday, July 7, 2014

Fine Champagne

She's fancy houses and fine champagne
 She's first class flights and old Paris hotels
 She's canopy beds and fashion shows
 You feel out of place like you just don't belong
 So you ask her if she'd leave it all for you
 And you know what she's going to say
 Before she even speaks
 Because someone like her
 Doesn't leave it all for someone like you
 She coddles in silence
 And caresses your face
 So it surprises you when she says 'yes'
 Today you decide to test her
 And ask her to follow you
 Into the real world
 Into gritty streets and end of the line
 Into nine to fives and four by fours
 And true to her world
 She takes your hand
 But this isn't a game
 And I can see
 You don't love her like she does you
 You don't look at her like she looks at you
 So you tell her the truth
 And her tears come silently
 She asks you go
 As she watches you leave
 At the end of her grand staircase
 She would have followed you to the end of the world
 And it might be too late
 When you realize it didn't matter where you lived
 That you too would change it all for her
 So you run as fast as you can
Trying to catch all the time that has gone by
 And you hope it's not too late
 But you find the staircase empty
 And the servants shake their head
 But she comes down a few moments later
 Surprise in her voice
 As you say she doesn't have to leave anything
 She listens quietly
 like scolded children often do
 And then the servants announce
 The bags are all packed
 And she traces the lines in your face
 Without a word
 She's gone

Thursday, July 3, 2014

Judgement Day

A speaker stood speaking to himself
In a room full of ghosts
A woman sat in a chair
Face in her hands
Tears in her eyes
There were lights everywhere
And people started filling in
The silence overpowered
I don't know how much of our story
Is written before we are born
But this is it
The moment we've been told
When our deepest secrets are thrown into the world
An old man stood by the door
Calling roll and casting stones

Remember that you said
It was fables all of it


This is judgement day
My darling


When we claim our sins
And pardons are handed out
If any, like expensive gifts
To all the socialites in the audience
The smell of incense
Steams and expands in the enclosure
The doors both lock
Bolts of hell and rays of heaven
It's too late to back out now
And the speaker is still speaking to himself
No one seems to listen
A little girl sits in the front row
Lips parted and eyes on him
The lonely speaker in a full room
The tap of fingers on the microphone
Seems to startle all the present souls
And here he reads
Each and every deed we've done
Good and bad
Red and gold
I don't know how much of our stories are written
Before we are born
But this is it
The moment we've been told
A woman intercedes for us
Pleading prayers of a mother

This is judgement day
My darling

Remember that you said
It was fables all of it?